Great Worth
YOUR BEAUTY SHOULD NOT COME FROM OUTWARD ADORNMENT, SUCH AS BRAIDED HAIR AND THE WEARING OF GOLD JEWELRY AND FINE CLOTHES. INSTEAD, IT SHOULD BE THAT OF YOUR INNER SELF , THE UNFADING BEAUTY OF A GENTLE AND QUIET SPIRIT, WHICH IS OF GREAT WORTH IN GOD'S SIGHT.--1 PETER 3:3-4
I love that verse. That's mine and Sarah's, I've decided we can share it. Yes. People have told me before that I have a "quiet spirit" and that's sort of why I liked it at first. But now I realize that the people who told me that before were the kind of people who only saw me in youth group and church who only see the quiet shyness I have when I'm in groups like that of people I don't know so well. Yeah, because I think my better friends wouldn't say I have a quiet spirit... ooooh. Atleast not this year. I've been unhappy, bitter, resentful, angry, cynical, and anything but "quiet". Not all the time, but a lot of times I have been just not the nice joy joy happy kind of person. Now though, I get this verse better. I know it's not saying that woman should never talk or, heaven forbid, LOOK like anything nice. No, it's simply saying that our beauty should be MORE than outward looks. It's all about the heart.
"TO HAVE A GENTLE AND QUIET SPIRIT IS TO HAVE A HEART OF FAITH, A HEART THAT TRUSTS IN GOD, A SPIRIT THAT HAS BEEN QUIETED BY HIS LOVE AND FILLED WITH HIS PEACE. NOT A HEART THAT IS STRIVING AND RESTLESS"
(Captivating, Stasi Eldredge)
That explains it pretty well, I think. I have definitely been restless, but not really striving. Atleast not physically. More like not caring. Maybe I did have a more peaceful spirit a couple years ago, but right now I am learning to desperately want and pray for it. I want to be beautiful. A beauty that is not physical. The kind of beauty that puts others around me at rest, happy to be around you, not a striving to be perfect. The kind of infectious peace and laughter I've seen in precious few people in my life.
Janey - Mrs. Olsen - is one person like that. Just being around her, she has such joy and peace that you can't help but be happy. She is amazing, and truly beautiful. But the thing is, she's leaving! Moved to Calgary. -sigh- And I won't see her for a while. That one less wonderful person in my life.
God, I want to be beautiful. I don't want to try to make myself perfect, striving to be something I'm not on the outside. Give my Spirit peace, teach me to be captivating and full of joy. God, come into the places in my heart that are wounded and broken. Where I am angry and bitter and impatient. God heal me and touch me and be with me always. Teach me Your love. Show me how I'm beautiful, how YOU see me. Free my heart to hear Your voice. Give me a passion for Your word.
posted by Robyn at
1:20 PM
1 comment(s):
Hi Robyn
I just wanted to say that you are an amazing person. I admire your great faith in God. From KateLudwig
By
Klea, at
10:10 PM
Post a comment
<< Home